Save us from Love

At the age of 59 my conversation with my wife, who is 53, usually revolves round how much we love each other, i e how much she loves me and how little I care for her. She asks sarcastically,'Remember, since how many months you have not kissed me?' She forgets my kisses. And fact is in our 30 years of married life she has never even attempted to kiss me. Never. When she used to kiss her children I used to feel sorry for myself. 
If I don't watch TV serial with her she thinks I don't love her. Hindi TV serials are really irritating for me. I just can't bear/tolerate/stand them. So, I bring some movie which she likes to watch too. But here too our tests differ. She can stand any movie including art movies and except some horror movie. Now problem arise when I feel sleepy after a few minutes. She feels neglected again. 
When she goes to bed and I pick up some book to read because I am not yet ready to go to bed she will think I am avoiding her deliberately. Through her sleep she will poke me with comments like: Its already 12! or Will you please put off the lights now! Sometimes she gets furious and leaves the bed with the pillow to sleep in the drawing room. This is the time when I think I am in a real trouble.

india always needs outside managers to manage them

In the long history of India it was ruled by some native Indian only for around 5 to 6 hundred years, comprising the rule of Ashoka the great and Chandragupt. Rest of its history is dominated by rulers who initially came from north west of India. These rulers were quickly absorbed by the vast multitude of Indians into themselves. Hesitantly they became indians themselves, rather they were obliged to do so without wasting much time. Indians reciprocated by readily adapting to the new realities, compromising where it was good for them and resisting where needed. Before Islam it was easier for both invaders, saints, intellectuals and travelers from the north-west and the Indians to come to terms with each other because religions and races were not new to them. Hinduism, Buddhism, Paganism and atheism as well as Yavans, Huns and Shakas were quite familiar to them. After the north-westerners adopted Islam and the new invaders tried to force their newly adopted religion and culture on the Indians the trouble started and the assimilation was resisted. Even it took a few centuries for Indians to understand what was coming. But ultimately Islam and Islamic culture too were absorbed into India. for around 6 to 7 hundred years Indians accepted, rather chose Muslims as their rulers. Even Marathas, who ruled most of India for aroun 100 years did not try to force themselves as rulers of India, they being natives. By this time Muslims themselves became natives and India needed another ruler, a manager so to say, and it readily appointed British as their ruler.
Post independence is the only era in which Indians are ruling themselves. And any semblance of a foreign rule, may be in the shape of the Head of a democratically elected ruling party is readily welcomed by them.
Some thoughts on this next time. 

I am not able to do what I want to do...

I want to read and write. Read, ok I read a lot, but I read whatever comes along. There is no proper selection of reading material. 
I have not much time left. I am 59 already and I should read what I actually want to read which is literature, fiction, poetry etc. 
And I should try to write too. Of course, writing should be much more important for me. 
I read because I am unable to write. Waste time reading useless newspaper articles, blogs because I don't have enough time to read serious literature. 
Can somebody help me out of this quagmire?

How to start writing...

Actually I wanted to start a blog in Hindi. I did actually try once but failed to continue it because writing in Hindi was not easy.
I am a writer and have published a book of short stories in Hindi.
I have lost hundreds of written pages because my computer needs frequent formatting. You would say formatting doesn't necessarily delete your valuable files. I know, but I am kind of lazy and careless too.
So, whatever I have to write, I have decided to write in this blog.